Saturn keeps on keeping on...and now for the next Reality Bite...

More and more lessons - and shocking ones too.  For a few months earlier this year, I had attempted a collaboration with a former actor that could have ended up as a television series.  The long and short of it is, is that it never happened - because of differences in artistic temperment.

If only it had been that simple.

I had admired this actor since childhood, and admittedly viewed him through 14 year old eyes when he and I were connecting.  In the end, however, the real person showed up, and have now found out he is considered a complete “nut” in the eyes of those in the acting community.  What a jolt this has been - first to get involved with someone that wasn’t all what he had seemed - and to be letting go of my teenhood illusions in a very harsh way.

This has been Saturn’s doing - Saturn stripped off the veneer of my own fantasies to see something that wasn’t pretty to look at. 

And I wouldn’t have missed this experience, because it has me looking at life more head on, and with less fear. 

With every loss, there's a gain...

My Saturn Return phase has completed itself, with a lot of gains, and now, here's a major loss:  I loss a dear friend yesterday.  And I find myself feeling angry.

Angry because was only 58.
Angry because her health symptoms weren't taken seriously enough.
Angry that she didn't see a doctor
Angry that she's gone. 
Angry that she probably died in a lot of pain.
Angry that she died alone on her floor, and was deceased when she was found.

She was a beloved and loved human being, who was incredibly gifted as an artist, and as a psychic.  I remember talking to her recently and she was looking forward to HER 2nd Saturn return, and wanted me to tell her what might happen.  Now, she's not going to even have it.

The loss here, though - does yield gains:  the lesson that she is teaching us is - do your life, your purpose, your potential, and do it 100%, like she did - and don't WAIT.  She had a rich, full life, and a family and friends that loved her deeply. And I'm glad to say I'm one of them.

God bless you, Christine Winters - you will be missed.

Pluto, Uranus and Mars....oh, my...

The next several days - actually most of the rest of this month - are going to be intense for many of us.  Pluto, Uranus and Mars are coming into a tight T-square as we speak.  Clearly, at least to me, this is a gigantic window to clear the decks for huge change.  As we are seeing right now, the world economy is fighting to stay stable, but isn't doing a good job of it.  We're trying to hang onto what we have known, or what has given us security - and its very quickly morphing into something very new, and frankly, quite frightening.  The issues have to do with the power we have, and what kinds of actions do we take in order to help us restructure that power base within us.  This country is feeling it, right on the front lines.  Our own sense of personal security and connections to our families and a collective body of people, is shifting wildly.  Loyalties are being tested.  The key here, is staying centered within your own biosphere, and riding out this very strange wave of energy.  With Mars adding fuel to the two outer planets, I suspect actions will be taken that aren't always wise, but might be necesssary to clear out the energies from the past.  I also expect tempers to flare, and people might start fighting back - especially if their security is threatened.  And, from some point of view, it probably is.

So, the question is - can you remain calm in the middle of this not-so-perfect storm?  Find your areas where you go to, within, that will center and ground you.  And act, not react...when the time is right.

Starchild

The words to a song that means so much to me, by the fantastic group, Level 42:

STARCHILD

When I was an infant in my mothers arms
I would watch the starlight in her face
'Cause I was reaching out to understand the cosmic charm
I am just a starchild born in space.

Way up high above the sky all that beauty passes by
Whole worlds still unknown
And out beyond the blue there's a place for people too
It's time for us to go.

I have seen the sun shine bright in paradise
I have been there, I have seen it
Everywhere space people stare through ageless eyes
I have seen them, I believe it

Way up high above the sky all that beauty passes by
Whole worlds still unknown
And out beyond the blue there's a place for people too
It's time for us to go

We have time
(In my dreams)
Time and space
While we're young
(Floating free)
We can chase
The stars.

Searching for the magic in the universe
Guided by the stars that light my way
I have seen the sun shine bright in paradise
I am just a starchild born in space

If you want to go with me I'll take you there
I've been shown these secrets face to face
I have seen the sun shine bright in paradise
I am just a starchild born in space

 To see the video of this song:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?gl=US&hl=en&client=mv-google&v=awaIuNGx9MI&fulldescription=1

You know what I LOVE about Saturn....?

....I love the feeling of maturity in the middle of a minor crisis.  This morning my track pad on my computer was acting up (Saturn in opposition to Mercury in my natal chart, not to mention Mercury going Rx tomorrow), and I get a stuck cursor!  For about three minutes I had a hissy, then said - well, get it fixed.  So, I head down to the Apple Store, which in of itself is impressive, and got it fixed in 1/2 hour, and no charge. 

The opportunities for having a level head will no doubt be abundant over the next few days.  In the end, my own reaction was minor. 

I realized that our computers are like our kids - if they're sick, you're sitting there waiting while they take the little guy back to the "examining room" for its diagnosis.  Wringing our hands until the doctor comes back with the little fella saying he's just fine, it just needed some cleaning, thats all - changing its little nappy, I guess!  More Saturn moments of reflection....