All Men are created equal, and are fully allowed our unalienable rights to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. Those are principles our country was founded on, and ask yourself right now - are we doing that, as a country? Are we truly created equal, in the eyes of our founders? Was this what they meant, if you take a good look at where the country is right now?
I think not. Never in our country’s history have we been so divided; the classes are far away from each other, and the pursuit of the American Dream is all but dead. What I see is that this basic human right - the right to choose one’s own purpose and fully live it out - is being voted on. With our candidates for president - which of them believe in those unalienable rights? Who stands behind those factions that have been shunned for years and years? Who would like to see all individual rights go right back into the closet?
If we view this election as just that, we have two contenders - Romney and Santorum. Those two gentlemen would like nothing more than to step back in time, and live there permanently. What would happen to gay rights and now, the issue of gay marriage? Vetoed, signed and sealed. Abortion rights/the rights of woman to choose what she needs to do for her own body? Will we all have to convert to Mormonism?
Think about what we would lose.
What we are talking about is not just about our right to survive, it is about our right to have our purpose met, in the eyes of God. All of us has a job to do - to make sure that we don’t lose ground in this respect. Whether you like or respect President Obama or not, he is on track with these principles. This is the way our planet is heading by the way - we can’t stuff the consciousness back into a box and pretend we don’t know.
Someone said that if Obama is re-elected, we wouldn’t have a country anymore. God, i hope so - we might just have a chance to have the country we were supposed to have - that kind of country the founders meant us to have.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Friday, February 17, 2012
The Nirvana of Neptune: The quest for the Ultimate High and a little about Whitney.
God, yet another one. Damn, they just keep happening! Just how many amazingly talented people have gone south, then ended up leaving the planet, in the last oh-so-many years?
Way too many. Why does it seem like the most talented icons of our time seem to have such untimely demises? So many died young, or perhaps just went down the tubes, and will never recover. Does it seems like the costs of being so gifted are so very high to living a normal existence on earth?
It would seem so, in some of the cases. If one is looking for the cause of such a syndrome, it would be multi-faceted. The most talented, the ones that went to the top so very fast, seem to be the ones that head to the bottom in an equal amount of time.
This problem of illusion and escape - away from the mundane realities of life - is a question of these souls - to stay in the Land of Nirvana permanently, without having a care in the world.
And yet.... we ask this - why is that the need? That need to stay in that elevated rarefied atmosphere of incredible highs when the right note is hit with perfection, when the lick is played just right, when the orchestra hits the final note, and there’s a hush in the crowd before the rush of applause - when the whole body and soul expands beyond limits; when the rush starts at the toes, and moves up to the heart and we feel it completely release - then up through the head and up to God. That feeling is an incredible drug, and musicians/artists alike search for that peak experience their whole lives. And when they cannot, they try and create it artificially, through addictions to just about anything that will recreate that feeling in the soul, of that point of esctatic release. There is something omnipotent in that space, and it bestows the person experiencing that, a feeling of absolute mastery and feeling that somehow the center of the universe is theirs, for the bidding.
If most of us had that kind of experience, it would be something we would want more of. But those like Whitney, Amy, Michael - there was something else driving that need. And that was the need to raise the veil of invisibility for long enough to have the world see them - because, some part of them felt invisible.
With every signature of great musical ability, also came the desparate need to be noticed and accepted. The pain of a soul, that seemingly had a life contract that said “I don’t exist, or I am not seen” is almost the most difficult, and the most painful. This kind of pain, or dark emotional matter, had to live in the same body with the divine talent. Perhaps the talent had to come from the pain? Yes, both sides juxtaposing the divine with the dark at the same time. To perform they way did, they had to translate their inner pathos into the lyrics and the music they wrote. And the pain of their lives, at some point, would surface - either in the music, or in the private life becoming public.
All of these experiences come from the planet Neptune. Neptune’s domain seems to embody both these sides - the capacity of incredible nirvanic experiences, along with the abject fear that all of what happens/happened is not real. That is the real fear - and that fear drives the person to making sure, at all costs, that there is a constant seeking of the nirvana of Neptune. It is truly like what an addict would say - that the first time on the drug was the best, and successive usage is driven by the need to recreate that first experience.on the new drug. This experience isn’t too far from the surface, but way down below, there’s that fear of not being accepted, and finally the fear of not existing, or being seen.
Whitney’s gift was evident early, and was told at a very early age what her destiny was. Lots of responsiblity for that young girl - to live up to everyone elses’ expectations of her. Her own chart shows that - the artistic soul with a lot of responsibility to everyone else - and an expectation that she had to do what she was told. That could honestly be felt as confining, and later on she went on to marry someone that was a ‘bad boy” and wasn’t received too warmly into the family. That was her way of rebelling. Her gift came pretty easy, but she paid for that in the difficulties of life around her. She ultimately broke away from the nucleus of that family, but it cost her. She very well have met and married someone just to rebel, and not use good sound judgement on the candidate she selected for marriage. With her soul being pretty needy (if the life-script is one of non existence, the individual will become very needy of the mirror - the mirror that reflects back to her that others know she is there), that translated into extremely co-dependent situations with people in her life, most especially with her former husband. In later years, her drug addiction took over, as her demons and emotional pain was encroaching more and more on her conscious mind, trying to help her deal with those fundamental feelings/fear of non-worthiness/non existence. She kept running away from that, and it kept persuing her.
In the end, it found her. She was overcome, very likely, by the water - which I think symbolizes that her own denied emotional state had finally claimed the victim. A Katrina of sorts, as the water reclaimed New Orleans.
If onlys are pointless, but if she had owned her own emotional pain, and dealt with it, she might still be here. What a lesson in sadness.
Way too many. Why does it seem like the most talented icons of our time seem to have such untimely demises? So many died young, or perhaps just went down the tubes, and will never recover. Does it seems like the costs of being so gifted are so very high to living a normal existence on earth?
It would seem so, in some of the cases. If one is looking for the cause of such a syndrome, it would be multi-faceted. The most talented, the ones that went to the top so very fast, seem to be the ones that head to the bottom in an equal amount of time.
This problem of illusion and escape - away from the mundane realities of life - is a question of these souls - to stay in the Land of Nirvana permanently, without having a care in the world.
And yet.... we ask this - why is that the need? That need to stay in that elevated rarefied atmosphere of incredible highs when the right note is hit with perfection, when the lick is played just right, when the orchestra hits the final note, and there’s a hush in the crowd before the rush of applause - when the whole body and soul expands beyond limits; when the rush starts at the toes, and moves up to the heart and we feel it completely release - then up through the head and up to God. That feeling is an incredible drug, and musicians/artists alike search for that peak experience their whole lives. And when they cannot, they try and create it artificially, through addictions to just about anything that will recreate that feeling in the soul, of that point of esctatic release. There is something omnipotent in that space, and it bestows the person experiencing that, a feeling of absolute mastery and feeling that somehow the center of the universe is theirs, for the bidding.
If most of us had that kind of experience, it would be something we would want more of. But those like Whitney, Amy, Michael - there was something else driving that need. And that was the need to raise the veil of invisibility for long enough to have the world see them - because, some part of them felt invisible.
With every signature of great musical ability, also came the desparate need to be noticed and accepted. The pain of a soul, that seemingly had a life contract that said “I don’t exist, or I am not seen” is almost the most difficult, and the most painful. This kind of pain, or dark emotional matter, had to live in the same body with the divine talent. Perhaps the talent had to come from the pain? Yes, both sides juxtaposing the divine with the dark at the same time. To perform they way did, they had to translate their inner pathos into the lyrics and the music they wrote. And the pain of their lives, at some point, would surface - either in the music, or in the private life becoming public.
All of these experiences come from the planet Neptune. Neptune’s domain seems to embody both these sides - the capacity of incredible nirvanic experiences, along with the abject fear that all of what happens/happened is not real. That is the real fear - and that fear drives the person to making sure, at all costs, that there is a constant seeking of the nirvana of Neptune. It is truly like what an addict would say - that the first time on the drug was the best, and successive usage is driven by the need to recreate that first experience.on the new drug. This experience isn’t too far from the surface, but way down below, there’s that fear of not being accepted, and finally the fear of not existing, or being seen.
Whitney’s gift was evident early, and was told at a very early age what her destiny was. Lots of responsiblity for that young girl - to live up to everyone elses’ expectations of her. Her own chart shows that - the artistic soul with a lot of responsibility to everyone else - and an expectation that she had to do what she was told. That could honestly be felt as confining, and later on she went on to marry someone that was a ‘bad boy” and wasn’t received too warmly into the family. That was her way of rebelling. Her gift came pretty easy, but she paid for that in the difficulties of life around her. She ultimately broke away from the nucleus of that family, but it cost her. She very well have met and married someone just to rebel, and not use good sound judgement on the candidate she selected for marriage. With her soul being pretty needy (if the life-script is one of non existence, the individual will become very needy of the mirror - the mirror that reflects back to her that others know she is there), that translated into extremely co-dependent situations with people in her life, most especially with her former husband. In later years, her drug addiction took over, as her demons and emotional pain was encroaching more and more on her conscious mind, trying to help her deal with those fundamental feelings/fear of non-worthiness/non existence. She kept running away from that, and it kept persuing her.
In the end, it found her. She was overcome, very likely, by the water - which I think symbolizes that her own denied emotional state had finally claimed the victim. A Katrina of sorts, as the water reclaimed New Orleans.
If onlys are pointless, but if she had owned her own emotional pain, and dealt with it, she might still be here. What a lesson in sadness.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
My God, its 2012...
...and soon I’ll be seeing my 60th birthday; its the year of the dragon, and supposedly, this is the last year left of the earth (or at least the old earth) before we all leave it, or completely transform-according to the Mayan calendar
I am a bit more middle of the road on this - I do think the planet is undergoing a subtle, but powerful transformation. There are a number of astrological events that are coming into play, but there is a sense of something about to happen, and I think, for the good of mankind. There are things I’ve noticed in the last week - issues that are playing out - that are going to get attention, a LOT of it. I cannot hazard a guess as to the political outcome of the presidential race - its too mucked up at the moment. Its the first time i can remember that one party seems so completely directionless. I actually think they should just phone in the election, and we’ll go on from there. Whether or not you take sides with whatever party, one can feel the shift happening. Things are moving at a faster pace; there are countries that are changing their own history by removing heads of state that rule tyranically...and doing it swiftly and decisively. It feels like we’re being set up for the future state of the world, by us realizing that each human being deserves a break and a chance to live the life they so choose.
And, after all that, I wish you and yours a Happy 2012. We deserve it.
I am a bit more middle of the road on this - I do think the planet is undergoing a subtle, but powerful transformation. There are a number of astrological events that are coming into play, but there is a sense of something about to happen, and I think, for the good of mankind. There are things I’ve noticed in the last week - issues that are playing out - that are going to get attention, a LOT of it. I cannot hazard a guess as to the political outcome of the presidential race - its too mucked up at the moment. Its the first time i can remember that one party seems so completely directionless. I actually think they should just phone in the election, and we’ll go on from there. Whether or not you take sides with whatever party, one can feel the shift happening. Things are moving at a faster pace; there are countries that are changing their own history by removing heads of state that rule tyranically...and doing it swiftly and decisively. It feels like we’re being set up for the future state of the world, by us realizing that each human being deserves a break and a chance to live the life they so choose.
And, after all that, I wish you and yours a Happy 2012. We deserve it.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Occupying.....and regrouping.
The world, right now, is seemingly shifting off its axis - at least it feels this way to just about everyone that is not working, or living on the edge of perceived disaster. In my own life, I cannot recall a more tenuous time; things feel alive, yet scary. Dynamic, yet unstable - and angry, yet happy. The doom and gloom scenario is in full swing; we have an election next year, without really knowing what the lay of the political land looks like yet. There is no real front runner in the Republican party, and President Obama’s presidency is seemingly hanging by a thread, ready to implode at any moment. Everything is hinging on the world economy, which is very quickly starting to free-fall. And now, increasing by the day - is the Occupy movement, which started out as a few people protesting on Wall Street in New York about corporate greed, and now its in at least 250 cities.
What is all this, really? What is really going on behind all the chaos of the world? An extraordinary time of complete shifting of consciousness. That is the engine behind the chaos. It is glaringly apparent that the systems that we know are now failing, and failing fast.
What we have to look at is this: what is economic abundance, really? Is it held at the top 3% of the population with the rest of the minions just getting scraps? Or, perhaps as President Obama is really telling us, is that wealth in this country must be shared by all. That’s the money situation - but also, how about how we hold money? Do we hold it as though we deserve it, and have our needs met, or do we scrimp for every dime, and always feel like we never have enough? Each of us has to ask that question of ourselves. If we have enough, and that isn’t just money - its abundance of life, of energy ,of health, of creativity, of purpose - its all those things. A rich, full life with meaning. The rest is just gravy.
We are at a crossroads now, where we must, each and every one of us, must ask ourselves what our value is, and what we can do to manifest our own personal destiny. The power in the self comes from absolute total integration of everything we are, and discarding what we are not. When we are manifesting on all levels, we have utter and total joy in our lives. Perhaps its time for the world at large - our government and its peoples - to look at being the best humans we were meant to be. We have to go back to ourselves, at square one, and refind what brings us fulfillment, on all levels. And bring joy and radiance into the world.
Its way over due, and about time.
What is all this, really? What is really going on behind all the chaos of the world? An extraordinary time of complete shifting of consciousness. That is the engine behind the chaos. It is glaringly apparent that the systems that we know are now failing, and failing fast.
What we have to look at is this: what is economic abundance, really? Is it held at the top 3% of the population with the rest of the minions just getting scraps? Or, perhaps as President Obama is really telling us, is that wealth in this country must be shared by all. That’s the money situation - but also, how about how we hold money? Do we hold it as though we deserve it, and have our needs met, or do we scrimp for every dime, and always feel like we never have enough? Each of us has to ask that question of ourselves. If we have enough, and that isn’t just money - its abundance of life, of energy ,of health, of creativity, of purpose - its all those things. A rich, full life with meaning. The rest is just gravy.
We are at a crossroads now, where we must, each and every one of us, must ask ourselves what our value is, and what we can do to manifest our own personal destiny. The power in the self comes from absolute total integration of everything we are, and discarding what we are not. When we are manifesting on all levels, we have utter and total joy in our lives. Perhaps its time for the world at large - our government and its peoples - to look at being the best humans we were meant to be. We have to go back to ourselves, at square one, and refind what brings us fulfillment, on all levels. And bring joy and radiance into the world.
Its way over due, and about time.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
A sense of inner grace....
As Venus moves into my 4th house, and Saturn right behind it - something is happening, and it feels really good. That is to say, that inner serenity and new boundaries are starting to be rebuilt. This is involving the jettinsoning of certain people that tend to bring nothing but drama and stress. After all, this lesson is about the solidification of my love for my own inner self, and those things and people that don’t support that, or perhaps impede my connection to the inner grace I seek, will likely be phased out, albeit in a gentle way. We don’t usually pay much attention, most times, to the smaller transits of the inner planets, but there has been a noticable shift in my sense of personal peace, since Venus and her graceful self, moved ever so delightfully into my 4th house. Which would support this: that transits into the 4th - no matter how small or large - is an event to be noticed and integrated, in the larger whole. And as Venus and Saturn move onto my Neptune, lets just see how romantic it all gets. What fun!!
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Resting...and inward focus
As I sit at my computer at 4:30am, I was awakened by thoughts of the previous days events. I was taken to task about my “lack of participation” in my work, at work. I’ve reached what I would call an apathy state there - so many things I have to do to keep ahead of the game there: all the competition, all the keeping the numbers rising game, etc. And I’m tired. My vacation was a time for total rest, plus a health scare. That scare, although things are fine, got me to see that I am indeed getting older, and things are happening to my body that I don’t particularly like. And now I deal with this feeling of not participating in my existing life in the same way. I am going within, quite a bit, and wanting time alone, at home. Interesting, the “have-to’s” in life, just don’t seem to matter, right now. I know that I could likely turn all that around at work, but frankly, its not important to my growth anymore. Been there, done that. I am not one that looks to be Number One - I just want that for my own life.
This is my upcoming transit of Saturn into the 4th (and Saturn transiting over Neptune, too) - where I go within and take emotional stock of my life. It is rather hard to explain this to my employer, who seems to want more and more of me, every minute. I don’t have it to give to them, and so, this might mean things will change in that arena - perhaps sooner than later. However, I cannot run away from myself and my desires, which will, I am certain, come more to light in the next few months, as Saturn egresses into my own inner domocile. I am keenly aware that more illusions will fall, but welcome the clarity Saturn will bring to this part of my life, even if it is difficult. I feel this funny urge to connect with children - I chose not to have kids this lifetime - perhaps to find an inner child I need to adopt during these more serious, adult times. To find laughter and fun, in the middle of the difficult hours.
This is my upcoming transit of Saturn into the 4th (and Saturn transiting over Neptune, too) - where I go within and take emotional stock of my life. It is rather hard to explain this to my employer, who seems to want more and more of me, every minute. I don’t have it to give to them, and so, this might mean things will change in that arena - perhaps sooner than later. However, I cannot run away from myself and my desires, which will, I am certain, come more to light in the next few months, as Saturn egresses into my own inner domocile. I am keenly aware that more illusions will fall, but welcome the clarity Saturn will bring to this part of my life, even if it is difficult. I feel this funny urge to connect with children - I chose not to have kids this lifetime - perhaps to find an inner child I need to adopt during these more serious, adult times. To find laughter and fun, in the middle of the difficult hours.
Sunday, September 4, 2011
A time for rest....
This week, I am on vacation from my regular job. Its time for some huge changes - I can feel it. During this week off, I have a chance to clear some decks, and look at whats going on in my life - and where necessary, make some changes. My 2nd Saturn return is officially done, but now the real work starts. Can I apply the renewed set of values to my present situation - and shift things in my everyday life?
The timing of this vacation is more than just about my everyday work - its about my life, moving on from this point. Do I want to live as I have, or step into what is really right for me? I’ve had a chance to look at all that during my Saturn return - and now the physical reality and my own perception of reality seem very different. I am coming up to a major transit - actually, I’ve already been in the beginnings of it - witih Pluto squaring Mercury. Time for some hard truths - not just knowing that in my head - but telling the truth to others. Brutal honesty. The polite person I have been (Saturn opposing Mercury, natally), might not be so polite in the future. As above, so, below...
The timing of this vacation is more than just about my everyday work - its about my life, moving on from this point. Do I want to live as I have, or step into what is really right for me? I’ve had a chance to look at all that during my Saturn return - and now the physical reality and my own perception of reality seem very different. I am coming up to a major transit - actually, I’ve already been in the beginnings of it - witih Pluto squaring Mercury. Time for some hard truths - not just knowing that in my head - but telling the truth to others. Brutal honesty. The polite person I have been (Saturn opposing Mercury, natally), might not be so polite in the future. As above, so, below...
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